Welcome to the rEvolution!!

I'm back... Yes, again!

I know, I know… I have a tendency, some might even call it a habit, of making big statements, burning brightly for a while, and then fizzling out into silence again. And more recently making big statements, and then immediately disappearing into a mental health crisis.

I’ve realised now why this happens. When I make these big statements, my ego is fighting back against my psyche, but it can only do so for so long. By the time the ego starts grasping, trying to assert its version of who I am, what I am, it is already the underdog in the fight.

The psyche already has the upper hand.

Having spent most of my life in the shadows of my ego, it is no longer willing to be ignored.

It will be heard. The pain will be acknowledged. The healing must continue.

The ego may yearn for a return to the supposed safety of familiarity, but that is the realm of stagnancy and survival, and my psyche will not allow me to be held there anymore. When times get hard, it’s s OK to return to comfort for a time. Indeed, it is important to revisit what has passed; to understand our patterns and how they keep us small.

For us to grow, both individually and collectively, we must choose differently when we inevitably pass by where we have stumbled before. We must accept the discomfort and fear that comes with forging new pathways when we do not know what lies ahead. When it’s hard to move forward because the ground is uneven, woven with painful brambles or otherwise obstructed, it will feel safe and easy to return to the old path. But it will lead to the same place; round and round in circles we go.

If we want something different, something better, we have to find a new way.

For our circles to be ever increasing, we need to do it differently.

We need to choose courage.

We need to choose compassion.

We need to choose love.

I’m not making any big ego-driven statements about who I am. Today I make no promises. I’m allowing my psyche to speak. I am setting out an intention, making a commitment to myself through my art. It’s not a commitment of X number of hours per week or Y number of posts per month; it's a commitment to discover and share my truth. To stop hiding in the shadows. To stop playing small. To choose a different way.

It’s a commitment to discovering who I am, and not hiding the mess that it entails.

Thank you for being here in this space with me, my voice and my art as we discover who we can be.

Increasing with each rEvolution!

Check out the full gallery of images from this spectacular shoot with Rob Lycett back in Dec 2020 on my website via this link and join me for a chat!