‘The body keeps the score’. My body has gone a few steps further in recent years… Since the end of 2021, it has settled for somewhere in between…like an irritating message notification that cannot be silenced....
We will all need to be kind to ourselves these coming weeks and I’m sure you will help me and others as much as we help you. Let’s agree to stick to our boundaries, leave when we’re meant to and try to find some fun in amongst the chaos xx
We will indeed. I can't promise to make you leave on time since I'll be long gone by the time you go, but I can bring kindness and the fun (and chaos, as if we need more)! We got this!
Love so many lines in this! I hope you are recovering now. Every time I get physically sick it feels like such a reminder/slap in the face - to slow down, that I didn't listen to myself and rest when I needed it, that I'd forgotten what it was like to be constantly ill and apparently I shouldn't forget, or any number of other things I usually blame myself for. With regard to your last question, I rarely feel like I'm winning, and when I do, it's invariably followed by a fall in the form of being sick. Essentially, winning to me is when I'm on top of the world and managing to do it all, but my body says no to doing it all, pretty loud and clear. Luckily, over the last few years I have learnt my lesson, but I still fall into the trap.
We all get sick from time to time- we can't blame ourselves for bugs that are going around (although I totally understand, and have done it myself!) I try not to blame myself when it is clearly the result of doing too much either, because the line between 'fine' and 'too much' is very thin, wildly diffferent to what it used to be, and inconsistent to say the least! It's not often I feel like I'm winning these days either, but when I do, I try to make sure to make a written note of it because when feel like I'm losing you can be sure by brain will be logging it as evidence! I started to feel better yesterday afternoon thank you, but have still been careful with my energy today as I know I have an intense week to get through.
I'm so sorry you are not feeling well! That is always so frustrating. I love, love, love what you said about negativity being refusing to talk about and experience the wholeness of life. I feel the same way. So much of the beauty of life is in that both/and. I hope you get feeling better soon! Much love! Xoxo
I'm feeling a lot better today my love- Thank you! I'm glad those words spoke to you. You can spot a fellow Now Now alumni a mile off! I didn't intend the peice to go in that direction but as I was writing the thoughts strung together and I ended up swinging at the last minute from being the loser in this situation, to actually feeling like I am bossing this shiz, in my own special way! They also reminded me of some thoughts I shared with someone a while ago to that effect... When I'm feeling a bit stronger I might see if I can dig them out and share them with a more worthy audience!
It baffles me that anyone could call you negative. I guess when people are not living n truth then it skews how they perceive it when other are. You honest acknowledgement and sharing of the hard parts of life as well as the joys are such a huge part of why I’ve in your space and stayed. In a world that so often wants to live in denial it is like breathing fresh air to see and hear a full range of feeling expressed in images and words. I appreciate all that you share, from the things that chime with my own experiences, to the differences that teach me more about you (and many others).
Thank you so much for this reminder Cally. So much of my silence this past year has been down to me absorbing BS opinions about/ perceptions of me, from people who don't know me as well as I thought and don't know themselves as well as I do. I don't even respect them enough to warrant listening to their opinion, so why am I absorbing it and allowing it to silence my truth?!
Because I'm tired and feeling vulnerable in too many ways at once, I guess. 🥴
I guess at least that's a win of sorts! I am starting to feel better as the day goes on so hopefully I can get a good walk in tomorrow.
We will all need to be kind to ourselves these coming weeks and I’m sure you will help me and others as much as we help you. Let’s agree to stick to our boundaries, leave when we’re meant to and try to find some fun in amongst the chaos xx
We will indeed. I can't promise to make you leave on time since I'll be long gone by the time you go, but I can bring kindness and the fun (and chaos, as if we need more)! We got this!
Love so many lines in this! I hope you are recovering now. Every time I get physically sick it feels like such a reminder/slap in the face - to slow down, that I didn't listen to myself and rest when I needed it, that I'd forgotten what it was like to be constantly ill and apparently I shouldn't forget, or any number of other things I usually blame myself for. With regard to your last question, I rarely feel like I'm winning, and when I do, it's invariably followed by a fall in the form of being sick. Essentially, winning to me is when I'm on top of the world and managing to do it all, but my body says no to doing it all, pretty loud and clear. Luckily, over the last few years I have learnt my lesson, but I still fall into the trap.
We all get sick from time to time- we can't blame ourselves for bugs that are going around (although I totally understand, and have done it myself!) I try not to blame myself when it is clearly the result of doing too much either, because the line between 'fine' and 'too much' is very thin, wildly diffferent to what it used to be, and inconsistent to say the least! It's not often I feel like I'm winning these days either, but when I do, I try to make sure to make a written note of it because when feel like I'm losing you can be sure by brain will be logging it as evidence! I started to feel better yesterday afternoon thank you, but have still been careful with my energy today as I know I have an intense week to get through.
I'm so sorry you are not feeling well! That is always so frustrating. I love, love, love what you said about negativity being refusing to talk about and experience the wholeness of life. I feel the same way. So much of the beauty of life is in that both/and. I hope you get feeling better soon! Much love! Xoxo
I'm feeling a lot better today my love- Thank you! I'm glad those words spoke to you. You can spot a fellow Now Now alumni a mile off! I didn't intend the peice to go in that direction but as I was writing the thoughts strung together and I ended up swinging at the last minute from being the loser in this situation, to actually feeling like I am bossing this shiz, in my own special way! They also reminded me of some thoughts I shared with someone a while ago to that effect... When I'm feeling a bit stronger I might see if I can dig them out and share them with a more worthy audience!
It baffles me that anyone could call you negative. I guess when people are not living n truth then it skews how they perceive it when other are. You honest acknowledgement and sharing of the hard parts of life as well as the joys are such a huge part of why I’ve in your space and stayed. In a world that so often wants to live in denial it is like breathing fresh air to see and hear a full range of feeling expressed in images and words. I appreciate all that you share, from the things that chime with my own experiences, to the differences that teach me more about you (and many others).
Thank you so much for this reminder Cally. So much of my silence this past year has been down to me absorbing BS opinions about/ perceptions of me, from people who don't know me as well as I thought and don't know themselves as well as I do. I don't even respect them enough to warrant listening to their opinion, so why am I absorbing it and allowing it to silence my truth?!
Because I'm tired and feeling vulnerable in too many ways at once, I guess. 🥴